A Not So Good Day

 I started this post approximately a year ago and never posted it....

Seems like a good day to start blogging again...

I rushed out the door. Running. I was running late. my son and I headed out to school. I texted my husband a controlling, demanding text. No, I love you. No, you're the best hubby ever. Just stern nastiness. And then, the call that changed everything came in. 

"The doctor needs to see you in the office today." Me, "So I have cancer?' "Ma'am, you need to wait to speak to him." Me, "so, I have cancer!" Sobs. "He is in 1-4, when would you like to come in?" Me, "I have seven kids, you need to give me a minute." "Take all the time you need." *Thinking....so I have cancer, "I will be there at 1." "Don't think worst case until you speak to him." *I have cancer. 

I look in the back and realize my child just heard the entire conversation. I assured him this is not a death sentence and he says, "you have colon cancer?" Me, "yeah, hun, but trust me, I'm not going to die. I'm going to be ok."

I proceed to call my mom, my husband, best friend, my oldest's girlfriend and no one, NO ONE answered! "Ok God, I know I should put you first. I know you are with me. I know I need to trust you. I know you are here. Now, could one of my people call me back?"

His girlfriend called, I shared the news and she jumped into action. At the ready to help however I needed. Oh sweet girl, I am so grateful for her. 

I proceeded to tell my mom and my bestie.