Tuggin My Heart Strings

I attended a meeting with a psychologist at Pathways Psychological Services.  She went over the steps she could take to see if Jonathan is ADD.  I left with a stack of surveys for me, dad, teachers, and the social worker at school.  150 questions PLUS!!!!!  Mostly, heart wrenching questions...
does you child feel lonely? Often
does your child have friends? Sometimes
does your child say he hates himself? Sometimes
does your child have difficulty in school? Often
does your child say he is sad?  Often
does your child say he wishes he were dead? Sometimes
You get the idea.  Heart wrenching!!!!  It is so hard to sit back and take a real hard look and say, "yep my child does these things at the age of 8!"  Even harder when you think, "what did I do wrong?"  The answer, "NOTHING!"  I'm a great mom!

Fast forward to the following Monday...
Jonathan meets with the same psychologist and is now asked the same questions (with a few extras added in).  His answers, you guessed it, heart wrenching!  Do you know what it is like to sit in a room and pretend to not listen listen intently to your 8 year old answer such questions with answers you'd rather not know???  Heart wrenching!  Of course, he wasn't bothered by it one bit.  After all, he enjoyed playing with his water bottle, switching seating positions, laying down, and answering all questions with no quams.  Except of course for the question, "do your parents expect too much from you?"  "Um...no, well sometimes!"  Now that, well, I giggled inside!

This coming week, Jonathan will be back to the psychologist to take a computer test.  In the mean time, we are trying to eat gluten-free/casein-free whole foods and it's not that easy.  However, we are all benefiting from our new found diet.  After all, do you know how good yams are mixed with hamburger to make patties???  Or how nummy banana muffins can be without the extra junk in them???  Mmmmmm....so good!  We also are working to get him into the Autism team at the U of M for an assessment.  For the most part, life is good and we are adjusting well. 

I almost forgot, I did get a call from Jonathan's primary physician the other day.  He is AMAZING!  He has agreed to write a letter or fill out any and all paperwork I need to keep pressing on and get Jonathan the correct diagnosis and help he needs!  What a blessing!!!!  One more person on our side!  Thank you, Jesus!!!!

Oh and Allie...well...she's still our happy, gotta have fun, sweet, innocent, handful, loving, big girl!  Who asks daily, "mommy, what can we make together today?"  Referring to our new love for making all things from scratch.

Awww...how they tug my heart strings!

Comments

Laura said…
Totally heart wrenching! But you guys are doing awesome at jumping right in and getting answers and finding out what is going on! You're right, you are a great mom and there's no doubt Jonathan knows that. And how great that everyone is enjoying the new ways of life. :) I am praying for you all and everyone else involved in getting the correct diagnosis! How wonderful you have so many people on your side helping!
Carrie said…
I will be praying for your family as you seek a diagnosis.
MoJo said…
Oh Jolene, I have been slacking in the blog following lately, and I see I have missed some important updates! Your family is at the top of my prayers. You ARE an amazing mother, and with the Lord's help you will have answers to Jonathan's needs soon.
Lysana said…
They are sweet! And how heartwrenching, I agree. You are such a great mama, though, and you're doing the brave thing - and the right thing! - in addressing these difficult questions now rather than just letting these things build and build and potentially get worse. You're doing a great job! Hugs!
Amanda said…
I cannot even imagine... but you are setting a really good example with all of your efforts to make positive changes for him.

Let me know if I can help with anything!

Blessings-
Amanda

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